xNight Speechx

I somewhat feel as if the world and life are competing their best against me. It is just like everything I do never gives me any significant impact towards my improvement. I feel like each step I take only buries me deeper in a blink of an eye. So if I keep moving forward, I'll become very much far away and unseen. All the hardworks and difficult times I've endured are immeasurable. Yet, none of them never got me a way better. The extra amount of works  that are always burdened to me are worthless. At the end of the day, I always get myself being confused of what to do in the next day although I already know my daily routine of living the same cycle of timing and activity. I suck mylife or at least I feel like having sucked it. I don't know what to do. I get bored. My frustration is like being caught up and put into a place with less oxygen, making me get an asphyxia. I'm implicitly dying. I don't have any proper way to pinpoint this circumstance. Whenever I try to speak, there's only a bundle of tears bursting out from my eyes. What seems so much excruciating is hard to explain. I wish I were stronger than I suppose to. I never imagined before I was born, how difficult it is only to survive from tiredness.