No Monogamy Love Means Saying Goodbye
I'm not accustomed in having monogamy relationship, at least since I've realized that the one true love didn't exist at all. I often talk nothing about my point of view, because I already know that people will never understand. The understanding that love is a fluid experience isn't familiar to us, or perhaps we are only so denial to realize. We force ourselves too much to stay and sacrifice to the one we ought to think we love.
I often blame love for creating chaos. I used to think that monogamy is the only real concept of love. My faith towards monogamy love was strong enough to turn me into a naive girl, or perhaps I can consider it as the reason of me becoming my current self. I used to think that the greatest manifestation of love was marriage, or any serious relationship with modesty and honesty. I used to think that we as human beings have tremendous power to control love. Yet I figure out eventually that love isn't something to control. Love controls us.
We are such a weak creature when it comes to any sentimental stuffs. I remember those time, when I was still young and naive, when my ex-boyfriend was caught red-handed cheating on me. Its sucked. I was nothing more than just a broken-hearted and insane girl. I thought that cheating was the act occurred by those who can't control love. And those who can't control love only lets love heightens their ego.
The truth is, the concept of monogamy as our social construction makes love able to be acknowledged as the oppression, or lies, or anything worse than that. We force ourselves too much to be in love with one person, until when we suddenly bless affection toward someone else, we consider ourselves evil. It sucks.
Loving people is our destiny. We can't deny it. I am not that much familiar in loving two or more people at one time when it comes to the the affection towards sentimental or sexual relationship. Love does control me. I understand. Yet sometimes people don't have great understanding as mine in this matter.
I lost people I love for the sake of having no monogamy love. They went away.
I often blame love for creating chaos. I used to think that monogamy is the only real concept of love. My faith towards monogamy love was strong enough to turn me into a naive girl, or perhaps I can consider it as the reason of me becoming my current self. I used to think that the greatest manifestation of love was marriage, or any serious relationship with modesty and honesty. I used to think that we as human beings have tremendous power to control love. Yet I figure out eventually that love isn't something to control. Love controls us.
We are such a weak creature when it comes to any sentimental stuffs. I remember those time, when I was still young and naive, when my ex-boyfriend was caught red-handed cheating on me. Its sucked. I was nothing more than just a broken-hearted and insane girl. I thought that cheating was the act occurred by those who can't control love. And those who can't control love only lets love heightens their ego.
The truth is, the concept of monogamy as our social construction makes love able to be acknowledged as the oppression, or lies, or anything worse than that. We force ourselves too much to be in love with one person, until when we suddenly bless affection toward someone else, we consider ourselves evil. It sucks.
Loving people is our destiny. We can't deny it. I am not that much familiar in loving two or more people at one time when it comes to the the affection towards sentimental or sexual relationship. Love does control me. I understand. Yet sometimes people don't have great understanding as mine in this matter.
I lost people I love for the sake of having no monogamy love. They went away.
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